My Memories of Emergency – The Darkest Period in Independent India’s History

As decades tick on in our lives, some memories, good or otherwise, stay on top of all others. Being the son of a journalist who was also closely associated with Indian politics for over 50 years, my most vivid memories are of developments in Indian politics over the decades. I remember the outcome of each Lok Sabha (lower house of Indian parliament) election, right from 1977. And then there are memories of the 1990s being overcrowded with Lok Sabha elections, of coalition governments that lasted and those that didn’t, the nuclear tests conducted in 1998, and many others. But the most unforgettable of my memories – also the oldest – are of the Emergency (25-Jun 1975 till 21-Mar 1977) declared in India. 

Although there was growing resentment towards the Indira Gandhi-led Congress government in the mid-seventies, the immediate trigger for her imposing Emergency was the Allahabad High Court verdict, declaring her election to the Lok Sabha invalid. The court also disqualified her from holding public office for six years. Instead of resigning as prime minister, she chose to declare Emergency, establishing her absolute authority over the country. Citizens’ fundamental rights – which included freedom of speech – stood suspended. Newspapers and magazines could only publish what the government approved. Doordarshan (TV) and All India Radio, already run by the government, became propaganda instruments of Indira and her government. Over 100,000 people, including my father, K R Malkani, were arrested under the draconian Maintenance of Internal Security Act (MISA), according to which anyone even speaking against the government could be arrested and held indefinitely without trial, on the pretext of maintaining the country’s security.

Emergency was declared during our school summer holidays. I was 8 years old then. As young children, my sister, 10, and I knew I that my father would fearlessly write against Indira. What follows is all that I have recollected and documented over time from that period.

The night of 25-Jun 1975

During Delhi’s scorching summer our family used to sleep outdoors at night. On the night of 25th June, our family was sleeping in the courtyard at the front of our house. My sister and I slept through the night, not aware that we had had visitors at an unearthly hour.

I learned from what my mother, Sundari Malkani, told us next morning that we had police visit us soon after midnight. They did not enter the courtyard but called out my father’s name from the gate. My parents woke up and were told that they wanted my father to accompany them to the nearby police station. When my mother asked them why, their response was that my father knows the reason. For some support, my mother woke up my brother, who was 17 then. She wanted to request a neighbour to accompany my father to the police station. As she opened the backdoor to go to his house, she realised that our house had been surrounded by the police.

I also learned from my father’s book The Midnight Knock, that before leaving home, he turned and looked at us children, thinking perhaps this might be the last time he was seeing us.



I don’t recall my sister or myself crying on hearing the news from my mother. We probably didn’t understand what it meant for our family. I didn't know the meaning of the word arrest, till my mother explained it to me.

The front page of The Motherland (which my father used to edit). This may have been the only English daily published on 26-June, since power supply to Bahadur Shah Road, where all major newspaper offices were situation, had been cut off.

Surviving without the sole breadwinner – my incredibly brave mother

I learned, also from The Midnight Knock, that my father had left a modest balance in his bank account. Meanwhile, on that dark night, my mother was left with two frightening worries – my father’s safety (under MISA it was not conveyed why a person was being arrested, where he or she was being taken, and for how long), and the family’s financial uncertainty. The sole breadwinner of the family was arrested, but we still had to be fed and educated. Throughout that dark period, she was very brave. Despite almost no money at hand, my sister’s and my swimming classes (which had commenced that summer) did not stop.

All three of us studied in what was the most expensive school in Delhi in those days. Not that it was easy for my parents to afford the fees. It was only because Modern School was considered the best school in Delhi, they had decided to cut expenses wherever they could and give us good education. My brother had finished his schooling by 1975. Moving my sister and me to a government school would have reduced monthly expenses but compromised on the quality of education and exposure we were getting. For our futures’ sake, our school was not changed. I learned several years later that my mother’s Delhi-based brother was supporting her financially, as were at least two family friends, one in Mumbai and another outside India.

The car at home was provided by my father’s office. It could not be sold to get some money for running the house. Nor could it be left unused month after month. During this time of uncertainty my brave mother learned how to drive and took up the additional responsibility of driving the family. Unlike the summer of 1975, when we used to take a bus to National Stadium for swimming classes, the following summer she used to drive us, and a few other kids from the neighbourhood for swimming. Despite the financial hardship, she managed to give us little pleasures of childhood as best as she could. One of those was when right after swimming, she would at times want to take us for a movie instead of heading home. I recall once, after swimming we headed to the modest Stadium Cinema nearby, which was playing the Hindi movie Kalicharan. None of us fancied watching it! Sholay was the most famous Hindi movie running during that period. Although we had much time at hand during summer holidays, not to mention, the luxury of a car to drive us around, she didn’t take us to watch it. Possibly because of its violence and abusive dialogues.

Another time, when I asked for a cycle, she had tried to get me a second-hand one. I became very sad on seeing its state. So, she bought me a new one, although a cheaper brand than the standard Atlas or Hero. I can’t imagine what other expenses she would have compromised on to buy me a new one.

Visits to various jails

But going for swimming and the occasional movie were among the sweeter memories from those 21 months. We were also going to jail regularly to meet my father. I don’t know how and when my mother was informed of his whereabouts. He was first sent to a jail in Rohtak, Haryana, about 40 miles from Delhi. My mother’s brother had two cars. Each time we were to visit my father, my uncle would lend us his driver and one of his cars, while he would drive himself to his office in his other car.

One of the letters my father wrote from jail - addressed to us children, my mother and his sister.


In the Rohtak jail all the MISA detainees and their visitors would be made to meet in a large hall. I did not know anyone else there. In the same crowded hall, my father had pointed out Piloo Mody once, who's foreign-origin wife used to visit him.

The next "home" for my father was the jail in Hissar, also in Haryana. It was about 100 miles from Delhi. Our first trip there took us a long time. We returned home only at about 10:00 PM.

In Hissar, the rules were more stringent for visitors. We were made to meet my father in a small room in the presence of a few jail officers (or perhaps sent by the government) who’s job seemed to be to listen to everything we said to each other. The seating was limited and during one visit we were short of one chair. Being the youngest there, I sat on my father’s lap. Quiet and shy by nature, when I wanted to say something to him, I started talking softly to him. One of the officers objected to this. My mother responded to him saying that children are innocent (bachchay to masoom hotay hain). But he still wasn’t OK with me saying something he couldn’t hear. I don't think I completed my sentence at all after that.

The next home for my father was Delhi’s Tihar Jail. I don’t remember much of it at all. On either side of the huge door of the jail were the words “Hate the sin, not the sinner”. I think it was here once that as we waited to enter the jail, a large group of prisoners were being taken away in a bus. They were chanting in unison, “Shanti van say aayee aavaz, aaja beti mere paas” (a voice is calling from shanti van – Nehru’s cremation ground – come to me, my daughter). My mother found it amusing.

For the jail visits, my mother would cook or bake something that all of us would eat together, also giving my father a break from jail food.

The jails allowed only two adult visitors, besides children. My brother was 17 at the time of the arrest but the authorities still counted him as an adult. So, when any other adult relative wanted to visit my father along with us, my brother would have to stay home.

The bored spy in the neighbourhood

My mother was sure our phone was being tapped. She also spotted someone standing some distance from our house and watching our place all day. Presumably, this person was asked to keep a watch on who visited us. Every journalist with a spine was already in jail, as were Opposition leaders and tens of thousands of Opposition parties’ workers. So, this person clearly wouldn’t have anything interesting to report. Possibly bored with the lack of action, he once asked a neighbour’s male domestic help to keep an eye on our place while he took a break. The domestic help informed the lady of the house of this conversation. The good neighbour promptly came and told my mother about it, confirming her suspicion.

Balancing school and visits to jail

Meeting times in jail were late in the afternoon. So, my sister and I had to leave for the jail during school hours. Initially we both were in junior school at Humayun Road, but after 5th standard she moved to senior school at Barakhambha Road. My uncle’s driver used to first come to my school to fetch me, then to my sister’s school and then to our place for my mother and any other family member. Up till 5th standard we were not allowed to wear watches in school. So, I had no idea of the time or when I was supposed to wait outside school for the driver. The driver would reach school and go about hunting for me on the campus. And he would find me only by luck, because I was never looking for him! My sister, by contrast, was responsible and would be waiting outside the school when the driver and I would get there.

Once during a parent teacher meeting, my sister's teacher told my mother that she was taken aback when my sister sought permission to visit our jailed father. She said she had initially wondered what crime he had committed! But on hearing the reality, there was a general feeling of thoughtfulness among all staff members towards us and respect for my father.

Only one experience during this period was different. My Hindi teacher, Mrs Sahai, a well-known terror, once asked the class to write an essay on Indira as our homework. On seeing the assignment, my mother was furious and asked me not to write it. The next day I received a white card from the teacher – a severe punishment in my school, and the only time I ever received one. I started crying in the class but she still wanted me to write the essay. Under pressure, I did manage to write a page – far shorter than a conventional essay. On getting home I narrated the happenings in school to my mother. As I was leaving the room, her good friend from the neighbourhood dropped in to meet her. As she told her friend about what had happened, my mother started crying. It was also the only time I saw her cry during those 21 months.

We will never know if the topic of the essay was the teacher's choice or mandated by the government. It may not have been the latter, given that my sister did not get the same assignment. If this was the teacher’s own choice, I can’t imagine what purpose it served for anyone, including her. Secondly, given how my family was impacted by Indira’s Emergency, it was ridiculous of her to punish me for not completing that assignment. A few days later, she tried to control the damage. She said to me that a teacher is the children's mother in school. The thought that passed my mind was - should the mother in school do something that makes the real mother cry? Of course, I didn't dare ask her that.

My father - immersed in books (and the occasional comic) even in jail

My father was a voracious reader and used to spend most of his waking hours at home, reading. His favourite book was ‘Choose Live’, a dialogue between two scholars, Toynbee and Ikeda. A few times during our growing up years, he had cited the saying – A fool lends a book, and a bigger fool returns it!

Being in jail gave him the luxury-of-sorts, of spending time exactly as he pleased. I can imagine a lot of the time spent in open discussions about the government, something the latter could do nothing to stop, given that the “offenders” were already in jail. He also used to play badminton (we had given him one of the racquets at home), and read a lot.

One of my Pune-based cousins owned a bookshop called Modern Book Stall. My father used to give my mother names of books he wanted to read, which were sent to my cousin. When he was able to send us the books, we would take them to my father.

During one of our visits, he had finished reading all the books he had in jail, and we had no new one to give him. I generously offered him my Tintin comic, which I’d brought for reading in the car. He accepted the offer. He had the habit of marking interesting sections in the margins of books he read. While I don’t remember if he found anything in ‘Prisoners of the Sun’ worth marking, but he wrote down a few words on the last page, which he wanted to explain me the meanings of. The first among those was Inca.

I don't know how much of the story he understood, given that he hadn't read the preceding comic, 'Seven Crystal Balls'. But then, neither had I.

The meeting with Indira, that did not happen

One person who used to visit our house during the Emergency was someone called Bhikshu Chaman Lal. I have no recollection of who he was or what he looked like. Some years after Emergency my father narrated one incident related to him. On one of his visits to our place, he told my mother that he was going to meet Indira and tried to convince her to accompany him, saying that she did not need to say anything during the meeting. My mother was unsure if this was right. At that time her brother happened to drop in at our place. On hearing of this suspicious-sounding invitation, he advised my mother to decline it. While narrating this to us, my father said it was a very wise move, since the visit could have been projected by media as a meeting in which my mother apologised for my father's stand against Indira – something he would never have done.

Mega rallies against the government

Once, a large rally was organised on a Sunday evening, possibly by some Opposition leaders who were released early. My mother drove to the rally taking a few interested people with her. I remember her telling us that it was a very well-attended one. While the rally was on, a helicopter hovered over the venue, possibly to assess how big the anti-government/Emergency movement was. A second rally was organised for the following Sunday.

Through the seventies doordarshan was a drab affair, with the TV switched on only infrequently. But every TV-owning household would watch the Sunday evening movie, however boring it may have been. Before the second rally, it was announced unexpectedly that the relatively new movie, Bobby, was going to be telecast on the evening of the second rally, instead of a much older movie, Waqt (from what I remember). It seemed a desperate attempt by the government to prevent people from attending the rally. But it worked! On returning home my mother mentioned that the crowd this time was much smaller than in the first one.

Indira’s growing unpopularity

As the oppression continued, resentment against Indira grew. While people did not dare talk against her outside of private conversations with trusted people, I remember an incident that demonstrated popular resentment. Along the road leading to Minto Bridge in Delhi, a very long hoarding had been put up. It had Indira painted in the centre, with a very large number of small, faceless figures behind her across the hoarding, implying she was leading the country’s masses. I used to see it every day as my school bus passed from the nearby outer circle of Connaught Place. One day my mother learned that someone had smeared tar on Indira’s face on that hoarding. The next day for sure, I saw the spectacle from my school bus. Before long the tar was scraped off and her face painted back on the hoarding. Whoever the "tartist" was, it was incredibly brave of them to do so, knowing any person could well have spotted them and got them arrested.

And then there was this joke I heard in school. I narrated it to my mother who had a good laugh over it. It went that Rajiv (then a pilot) was flying Indira and Sanjay in a plane. As they flew over a village, looking down at it, Indira commented that if she threw a ten rupee note down from the plane, it’ll make the villagers very happy. Sanjay bettered her proposal by saying that if he threw a 100 rupee note down, that will make the villagers happy. Rajiv responded by saying “If I throw both of you down from here, that will make the villagers the happiest!”

As time passed, some prominent Opposition members were released. Shri LK Advani and Shri AB Vajpayee were among them. After his release one Opposition leader had gone to meet Indira. He asked her about Nana Deshmukh’s and my father’s release. She said my father would be released soon, but did not commit on Nanaji’s release. However, from what I recall, Nanaji was released soon after, while my father continued to be in jail. We will never know for sure why he was among the last to be released, given the hardship we – his family – were enduring. One can only assume it was driven by personal hatred.

Election Day - March 1977

Ultimately, elections were announced. My mother was very active on election day. She drove several elderly people in the neighbourhood to the polling booth and back. As the day progressed, she also went to some neighbours' homes reminding them to go and vote. She had a very close friend two houses away from ours, whose husband was an unwavering Congress voter. As my mother was visiting other houses in the neighbourhood, she asked my sister and me to go and remind her friend to vote. Innocent of the reason for her not going there herself (I suppose she was hurt at them not committing to vote for Janata Party), we both went to their place. The friend's husband looked slightly surprised on hearing our message, possibly thinking it was nice of my mother to remind them despite his political preference.

My father’s release after election results were out

Election results were announced over a few days. For us kids, it was a novel and delightful experience that Hindi movies were being telecast for a few days in a row. The unfolding election results – whatever little we understood of it – would have added to the delight.

From what I recall, my father was released only after the government’s defeat was announced. My mother and a few neighbours went to Rohtak to bring him back home. Possibly, my uncle’s car and driver were not available that evening. I think one neighbour had volunteered to drive our car. A very large number of people visited us that night to meet him.

Next morning I mentioned to other kids at my school bus stop that my father too had been released. At last, it had happened!

A quarter century after Emergency was lifted, when my father used to live in Pondicherry, a close friend of the Nehru-Gandhi family visited him. During their chat my father asked him what had made Indira finally lift the Emergency. This person’s insight was that major democracies in the world had strongly objected to the imposition of Emergency in India. He also mentioned that the jailing of Gayatri Devi of the royal family of Jaipur had particularly offended the British royal family. At one point, Indira succumbed to international pressure.

Emergency – not forgetting the dark history

Majority of India’s population today was born after the Emergency. They know little, if at all, about that period. However, it has famously been said that those that who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it.

While one can safely assume that no political party today will impose the kind and extent of oppression the Emergency did. But since the Emergency, and indeed, even in the decades preceding it, curbs have been imposed or attempted to be imposed. A particularly perverse attempt was the Defamation Bill of 1988 – introduced by the same party that imposed Emergency. The decade of Congress-led United Progressive Alliance wasn’t particularly supportive of freedom of speech. On the other hand, similar accusations have been hurled by the Congress against the Narendra Modi-led union government. Deeper understanding of the Emergency will give us context to understand the present better. So, that dark chapter of history must be discussed and written about extensively for the benefit of future generations.

The present government has ensured greater visibility of this period by declaring 25-June as Samvidhan Hatya Divas (Day of murder of the constitution). We are fortunate that over the decades, several books – from late seventies to a few years ago – have been written on the Emergency. Notable among these are BN Tandon’s PMO Diary, Coomi Kapoor’s The Emergency, A Surya Prakash’s The Emergency, my father’s The Midnight Knock, Janardan Thakur’s All the Prime Minister’s Men and Shri LK Advani’s My Country, My life. Interestingly, except the last (which has a chapter on Emergency), each of these was published when Congress was not in power in New Delhi.















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